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[instructus]

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In a way, yes, I do. But this is beyond just me, at this point.

[selfconcept]

For some reason, I don't feel like you're having us assist you for the "good of Estelline". Would you be happier if we found a certain person in those Saturday lessons in particular? There seems to be people thanking us after each one.

[instructus]

You're asking if I've lost someone in the process of all of this.

[ A dry laugh. ]

Metaphorically, I suppose I did lose something -- but it certainly wasn't another person. And even if I did, well. I can't say it'd faze me very much at this point in my life.

[selfconcept]

But you're still young, Miss Instructor. Everybody has losses that they care about—they just happen to be people.

[ ... ]

But then again, given all that's happened in Estelline so far, maybe your heart has hardened a little.

[instructus]

...Well. You aren't entirely wrong about that, but as I said, this doesn't involve the loss of another person.

It would make far more sense for me to mourn the person I once was.

[selfconcept]

But would you?

[ Mourn for the person she once was. ]

[instructus]

In a way, I wish I could, but I prefer not to dwell on such things in the end. What's done is done. The only thing anyone can do in this situation is move forward.

...Well. Try to, anyway.

[selfconcept]

Well... I wouldn't say you have to dwell on it, but you can take the time to mourn and then move on. I think that would give a little more closure.

[ He's all for living a fulfilling life. ]

It's admirable to see you working hard for your goals. Though, I wonder... what would you think if I voluntarily gave myself for this course?

[instructus]

...Hm. You have a point, but it's also a question if I have the capacity to do so.

[ She has not touched her ramen at any point in this conversation thus far. ]

Voluntarily signed up for this, you mean? Hmm. Would you approach it any differently?

[selfconcept]

Probably not. I don't really have a home world and I don't have any loved ones that are alive. So, in all honesty, if you asked me to join this course, I'd say yes. If I have nothing to lose, there's only everything to gain.

[ ... ]

Not hungry? I haven't heard any eating sounds on your end.